Take a Little Time to be Grateful for Your Smile

I had originally planned a completely different blog post for this week but circumstances have taken me in a very different direction…

I was out Saturday to dinner with some new and wonderful friends.  We bid each other good night and I turned and bounded down the stairs at Penn Station.  I still don’t know exactly what happened.  I do know I should have been holding the handrail but instead I went down the middle of the staircase at too fast a pace.  Maybe the stairs were wet from the bit of snow that fell but somehow I lost my balance and couldn’t regain it.  I hurtled down to the bottom and fell face first on the cement floor.

Fortunately for me, I managed to do this in front of a few paramedics, who out for the evening as well and on their way to catch their own train.  I tried to pull myself up as the worst pain I have ever felt in my life shot through my face.  Immediately, strong hands held me down and a voice said, “Don’t move.  Stay down hun.”  A white t-shirt was put in front of my face to staunch the blood that seemed to be everywhere.

They asked me a series of questions: What is your name?  How old are you?  … I was conscious the whole time and answered their questions.  I saw one tooth shoot out of my mouth on impact.  I ran my tongue over the others.  My nice straight teeth were suddenly like a jack o’ lantern’s.  I started to cry.  A hand stroked my hair and a woman said “it will be okay”.  Someone else bagged up my tooth and shoved it in my coat pocket.  An ambulance came a while later and I was rushed to a teaching hospital where for 2 days I was probed, pricked, tested, mri-ed and scanned in front of large groups of gaping interns.  Thankfully, I got out of there late Monday.

The current consensus is that my upper jaw is fractured but intact.  So, it may heal on its’ own.  My nose is also fractured but that may heal on its’ own as well.  My teeth met the floor through my lips.  They are currently stitched up inside and out.  I managed to joke this morning that it looked like I had a scorpion in my mouth with the end of its tail sticking out.

Oh but my teeth…  The Resident at the hospital refused to try to put my tooth back in after he heard it was on the floor at Penn Station.  I have several that are chipped, in the wrong position and there a few more that may not be saved.

I know it sounds a little vain to be focused on my teeth at a time like this.  After all, I was lucky indeed that I did not have any spinal damage or crack my head open.  Thankfully, my internal organs are fine.  I am also really fortunate to have support from wonderful family and friends.  To be honest though, I have cried every day over my teeth.

Me Chauncy and Coco

My smile wasn’t perfect.  I had an overbite (now an under bite); it was a little gummy on the left side.  The thing is though, it was mine.  Now, it will never be the same.  Months from now, I will have a new one and that is a really weird concept to have to wrap your head around.

This is what I have learned so far from this experience:  1. Smile at yourself and everyone else every chance you get and be grateful that you can.  2. hold on to the fucking handrail when you are using the stairs!  I wish I had.  A moment of carelessness has changed me forever.

Love and Blessings to all,

Cynthia

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14 thoughts on “Take a Little Time to be Grateful for Your Smile

  1. Sue k

    Cynthia, I am so sorry you are in pain. Your bright smile may be changed when you look in the mirror but the brightness won’t be. That comes from within. Something tells me the outside smile will match the inside one sooner than you think. Hang in there girl. Until then, Chocolate shake it up!

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  2. Sylvia Ligorio

    Girl,
    WOW, thank God nothing worst happened to you. that is CRAZY. I am so sorry sweetie. Scary and I understand how you feel about your teeth, but your beauty girl is inward as well as outward and I know it may not mean much but your are beautiful and I get that we all should learn to appreciate even small things like having a full set of teeth , you never know what life holds each day. But I thank God your here, alive and I know alittle brusied but in time will heal. You are lvoed girlfriend, so much!!! Prayers and thoughts coming your way… Smile cause no matter what your beautiful!

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  3. Cheryl

    Oh Cynthia – my gosh!!! I am really sorry to hear that this happened to you!! Thank God you didn’t break your neck or your back! However, I can totally relate to what you are saying… due to bullying throughout my childhood I used to be very self conscious about my appearance. It took me till I was in my 30’s to get over it!! LOL… I always had to look as good as I possibly could just to go to the grocery store! So I understand…
    I hope that you will come to peace with this and realize that you are beautiful no matter what!! It’s your sunshiny personality that comes through and that is what people see!! Your caring and compassion… your humor… you are such a wonderfully, beautiful person!! The great thing is – this incident will really allow you to work with those people who do not feel good about themselves… You will be able to relate to them in a way very few others can.
    My prayers and thoughts are with you as you heal… take good care of yourself!! Hugs

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  4. Margaret Bennett

    Ouch! A broken upper jaw and nose. You are still going to be beautiful when you are all healed up. You couldn’t contain that beauty inside you even if you tried. You are now on my prayer chain and I will send positive healing thoughts your way. You ever want someone to listen I’ll be here for you.

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  5. Shawne

    Oh My Goodness, Cynthia. This has been a very difficult few months for you. I am so sorry to hear that this happened. You are a strong and positive force. What a time to be starting this wonderful blog. You will continue to inspire people with your strength and light.

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  6. Al Romas

    I thought there would be an after picture following the smiling one with the pups. Seriously, you are very lucky. Teeth, a jaw , lips all heal. Could have been much worse. Use the recooperating time to get caught up on Judge Judy and Divorce Court. Get well soon!!

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