I just watched the last piece of my Nana’s cherry wood set get hauled away. I dragged that set with me from home to home for the last fourteen years and today, I let it go to an appreciative young man who was probably furnishing his first apartment.
I moved out of my parents’ house over 19 years ago. Hurricane Sandy brought me back here temporarily. My dental reconstruction is keeping me here a while longer. Deciding it was better to have funds available to pay my various dentists than for storage fees, I cleared out my POD this weekend.
I am a fiercely independent person. I do not enjoy asking for help. However, this situation has required that I learn how to accept it and I am definitely grateful for the help that has been extended to me by friends and family. I’d be lying if I said I was excited about the idea of sorting through all my crap and deciding what stays and what goes. It’s a perfect beach weekend and that is where I would rather be.
Rather than dwell on the loss of my independence (and a good beach weekend) though; I’ve decided to view this as an opportunity to let go of what I don’t need and welcome a fresh start. While I was looking through one box, I found a baseball card album filled with Steve Sax cards. My boyfriend in college gave it to me as a birthday present one year. I had remarked that Steve Sax had a cute tush and he thought it would be funny to give me all his cards. It was funny but not funny enough to keep toting around decades after we broke up; especially when I never really wanted it in the first place.
The baseball card album was one of his better gifts too. One year he gave me a toolbox filled with tools. I didn’t want that either. The nicest things one of my friends at the time said about it was “tell him next year, you want a jewelry box and to fill that up too.” The rising chorus from my friends was “dump him” and eventually I did. So, why do I still have this little album all these years later? Who the fuck knows… I am a sentimental person but I think this is a good time to reevaluate what I want to keep in my life and what NEEDS to go.
I also have this sense that letting go of unnecessary stuff will make room for new and better things, opportunities and experiences in my life. I think I will do a mental overhaul while I am at it and let go of accumulated fears, pains, frustrations and insecurities… I’m sure I have a book on that in one of these damn boxes…
What do you need to let go of? Have you had a positive experience after letting go of items you no longer needed? I would love to hear from you!
Love and blessings to all,