I am coming into the home stretch of my August Adventure Blogging Challenge. Challenged is how I feel at the moment…part of me would like to stop now. I’m at the point where if Burgess Meredith were my coach, he would be giving me a pep talk about having heart.
The odd part is that I don’t have writer’s block exactly. I still have a bunch of ideas jotted down. I just find myself staring at them and not knowing exactly how I want to frame them in a post. Every time an idea starts to take shape, a big cranky baby inside me slaps it down with a big, “NO!” Then I start to think about other things I want to do like make jewelry, practice yoga or go walk on the beach. Then I start to question,”Why did I publicly committ myself to this challenge again?”
“Why is this happening when I am so close,” I ask myself. I think it is the other side of resistance, the dark side. I mentioned last week in Naturally Balanced: Half-way Check-in and Knowing When to Take Five that feeling resistant can be fatigue or a sign that something is wrong but I don’t think that is what is going on here. I wrote in Naturally Determined: So Long Procrastination! that while I work hard at not letting other people down, I have often fallen short on meeting personal goals and keeping promises to myself. What I have going on here is one bad habit!
Gay Hendricks wrote in The Big Leap (Highly recommend it, by the way) about how we all have an upper limit that we have unconsciously set for ourselves. We are like a dog who is used to being chained. Even when we’re no longer tethered, we will not go beyond the area that the chain once imposed on us. When we butt up again this self-imposed limitation, many of us will fall back instead of jumping up to the next level. It’s a mentality that keeps us stuck in our comfort zone. Oddly, many of us do not even find our comfort zones all that comfortable but the comfort is in the known versus the unknown. The devil you know…
I don’t know what’s going to happen after I complete this challenge. Maybe nothing. Maybe something great. Maybe something in-between. However, I do know, if nothing else, I will complete it!
Many blessings to all,